I Never Understood The Difference Between Pancakes And Flapjacks

This week I have reignited a fire within me, something I used to have such passion for and that took up so much of my time and creative abilities, and somewhere along the line I just... forgot about.

I used to create games.

I have such fond memories of me and my older brother playing with our lego, designing characters, coming up with concepts for whole worlds, quests, levelling-up and stat systems, and then playing these games on our bedroom floor, anything from MMO style, to RPG to Tactical RTS, even choose your way RPG drawn down on paper. And then there was the designs of weapons, game mechanics, worlds and whatnot that we put so much effort into yet the game never got past idea-and-a-half stage.

But looking at getting into a uni course for animation and games design, I have decided to pick that up again, to look back into the game design thing. It started a while back when a friend of mine, Dan, and I thought up the concept for a moon exploration/FPS game that we could collaborate on once we had the skills from uni, and we started drawing up plans for weapons and characters and so on. This past week I've been adding to that, and started using Notepad on my pc (awesome simple little application, love the mono-spacing font, helps with ASCII pictures ^_^) to write out the concepts, mechanics and designs for the game. 

After watching a really good episode of Stargate Atlantis where they found a RTS game in the city, which turned out to be controlling real life people on another planet, I thought about giving the old medieval RTS games my brother and I used to play with eacother on paper and start designing the concept for a game that mixed up all the best qualities of the tons of games we came up with. And I'm quite proud and surprised to see I've written a good 3,500 words on it in just over two days.

I need to start drawing too, get back into the graphic design phase of it that I used to love so much.

Today I even got out my old MegaBlocks Dragons set and set up a little Final Fantasy: Tactics Advanced style game to play. *sigh* I miss being young and carefree enough to have so much joy in doing those things. I'm working on getting that back, but I need to get past the 'nothing seems to be enjoyable' and 'I just don't want to do anything' feelings.

I'll get there.

Signing out,

~Nattoons

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