Burning

You
Look
So
Pretty
With
Your
Insides
All
Outside
:)

Probably Antagonistic

I don't like people. People tend to piss me off. I'm not sure if it's the way they do their hair, or the way they talk, or just that fact that they are there, but recently I've found people to be quite annoying. Things I have lived with growing up suddenly are unbearable and bring out such anger, just being in such close proximity to certain people makes me want to scream. They do nothing wrong. Most of the time. I just feel like I want to be alone but no one lets me.

I have to be in a family I guess, and I'd be nowhere without them, but sometimes I still wish I could just get up and leave and do my own shit and live by myself, see my gf as I please, do my hair and nails how I want without people telling me I look like a tool or whatever.

I do love my family, don't get me wrong. And when I do move out I will still be back for visits. But right now people make me want to stay away from them. Just because they are there. I'm in no mood for people. Most people anyway, there are a select few I'd never not want to be around.

Sigh, It'll pass.

Signing out,

~Nattoons.

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"He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away."

-Raymond Hull

Octopi, Anyone?

So a lot has been happening as of late, I have had no internet so I couldn't really get on here to post my bullshit you all seem to enjoy reading, but eh I guess I've missed turning my thoughts to words so here I am.

These last two weeks since the new year I have been socialising like mad, mostly with the new girlfriend, but socialising nonetheless. It's been pretty great I might add, I'm not usually one to go out all the time or always be around people, but I guess having a close companion like that has pulled me out of that little hole. Spending lots of time with her, and actually catching up with other friends, yeah, it's been alright.

I've actually gotten out and done a few things, I went to the movies with my dear partner, we saw the new Studio Ghibli movie, Arrietty, which was amazing as expected, and oh so cute and adorable. Based on the book The Borrowers if any of you know it. So yeah, that was great, saw the movie, bought a Kamelot album I've been searching for for ages *whoo~!* and yeah. Haven't been able to see her since, so I'm somewhat pining for her attention *madly texts*

I have a job interview tomorrow at Maccas, which is good, since I've been looking for a job for ages and FINALLY something's come up. Even if it doesn't work out, getting this far after months of nothing adds a little hope. I'm not so fond of working at Maccas, but hey, it gets me money, some independence, and working there seems to be somewhat of a right of passage young people have to go through when getting on of their first jobs.

I've been back drawing again aswel, I've not had the motivation to do anything I used to enjoy for a while now, but I thought, hey, Mel (that's my girlfriend ^_^) likes the songs I write, how about I make her a little book with lyrics from a select few of my songs and draw pictures along with it. Something to keep me occupied and pour my heart into. It's been good, and I'm actually starting to enjoy drawing again.

The next few days I'm still quite busy, job interview, catching up with my friend who I haven't seen in months and just got back from England, and trying to see my girlfriend too. And after all that, I need to prepare for Uni. Yes, I got into Uni! The course I wanted too; Digital media design and Swinbourne *so excited* and then I'll be able to make all my cartoons and shiz I've dreamt of doing since I was 13.

Well, that's my ramblings for today, hopefully I'll have some new revelations or epiphanys soon to write down and entertain you with.

For now, Calamari is delicious.

Signing out,

~Nattoons

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"Any human who can say comfortably that they are perfect

is in fact the most sick of them all. But if you can say at least

one nice thing about yourself once a day, then you'll find that's

all anyone ever asks."

-B

First In A While

Got a whole lot of great gifts from wonderful people, had a lovely holiday in Echuca with the family, had a great night with friends counting down to newyears and spent the best day in a long time with my wonderful new girlfriend. Things are looking up for this year...

So why do I still feel so horrible?

Signing out,

~Nattoons

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"All bastards are bastards, but some bastards are bastards."
-Mad, The Last Continent